Patches of many hues...

I remember reading a story about a Granny sewing a big blanket making use of old clothes...she cuts them to square bits to form a blanket full of patches...Patches of different hues.

I never quite understood how things happened the way they do...and if i cannot accept them, i put on a facade to keep reality hidden. What i didn't know was the result it created...the bulk of lies that was formed inside.

Just wanna share a conversation i had with an office mate that had been an eye opener to me:

keith says: yaw tuo nga naa ko anak ha? joke ra to

Yanee says: huh?

keith says: ako pa, gud boy nako

yanee says: why? does it matter if naa or wala?

keith says: yup..

yanee says: does it change you for being you?

keith says: it does..

keith says: yah, for me ky if naa ko anak.. dili nako i.tago..

keith says: kana if naa

yanee says: hmmm i see...

keith says: la pa ko plans.. im too young.. got to help my mom and dad

yanee says: exactly... :)

keith says: kaw, when mn imo plano?

yanee says: pero even if it's true or not nga naa kay baby, it doesn't matter at all.. :)

yanee says: when ako plan for what?

keith says: minyo and have family

keith says: hehe

yanee says: hmmm

yanee says: :)

keith says: :D

yanee says: http://crystalianne.blogspot.com/2007/01/fading-wedding-bell-chimes.html

keith says: dili mn ka tubag

yanee says: nitubag nako oi

keith says: but cancelled a week before it happens

- what does that mean?

yanee says: as it is stated

keith says: sure?@#

yanee says: :)

keith says: ok ra na oi

yanee says: i'm okay...

yanee says: i'm almost over it

keith says: yah, hope ur ok.. "almost"

yanee says: i mean almost over that stage

keith says: mayra sad oi ky lingaw usa ta.. hehe

keith says: let's enjoy usa.. life is too short to be sad!

keith says: hawd kaau ka mo.tabon sa imo feelings noh? i never thought..

yanee says: hehehe

keith says: now i understand.. i thought .. simple LQ lng..

yanee says: there are so many things...as in a lot of things that you don't know and you never expect...

keith says: ya. but i know u will find another one. someone better,

yanee says: :)

keith says: i can see the other yanee right now..

yanee says: the other yanee?

keith says: yup.. not the HR yanee

yanee says: which part?

yanee says: daghan raba

yanee says: (chuckle)

keith says: multiple personality ai

keith says: hehe

yanee says: (chuckle)

keith says: the yanee that i was looking for..

keith says: :)

yanee says: ngee...you haven't been to my real world

keith says: yah.. pero at least.. naka kita nako gamay.. hehehe

yanee says: asa lagi nga part? ang lonely side?

keith says: the "girly" part

keith says: (chuckle)

yanee says: okay

keith says: that doesn't mean nga dili ka girl ha? to be honest, isog mn gud ka.. hehehe

yanee says: facade

keith says: hehe.. ive met a lot of women like you.. that's why i am expecting the same thing..

yanee says: i understand

keith says: :)

yanee says: funny...i met a lot of men who expected the same way you are expecting but was shocked to find out the real me... :) wala ko nag minaldita ha...

keith says: hehe.. ok ra oi. humm let me think kung unsa jud ka

keith says: sweet?

yanee says: i don't know...

keith says: HAHAHA..

yanee says: a lot of things have changed

keith says: lisud ni dah

yanee says: not kiddin

keith says: yah, i know ur "lost"

keith says: right?

yanee says: totally lost

keith says: if mgkita mo ni yanee, please tell her nangita ang iya other self niya.. para dili na cya ma.lost. hehe

yanee says: ambot...siguro dili jud lost...siguro i chose to be different na lang

keith says: grabeh jud diay noh?..

It was just an ordinary skype chat conversation but it created an impact on me. For the past weeks, i have been walking wearing somebody else's shoes. Borrowing somebody else's shirt, so as to hide what i truly felt deep within...

Patches of many hues, looks so good on the outside but the stories behind it...hmmm...plenty...

You'll never expect its reality.